Nerd it Up.

As the first week draws to an end, I'm feeling tired, sore, and maybe a little excited. I really would like to do well and I do mean quite well in school this year. My inspiration is getting into a program I will love so I never have to take another Organic Chemistry class again. That does however require me to know, what exactly that miracle program is. Thus I have to keep my options open. I need to do a lot of research and figure out what I truly want. That being said I have to focus, focus, focus and study hard this year. Most classes are going extremely well this semester so far, although it has only been 3 days of class. The only class that is stressing me out to the max is organic chemistry. That class will likely end my sanity and cause me to go insane. We have finished the second lecture and I am already lost. I will not however give up on this class, even though ever molecule of my being is telling me to do so. I will work on it this weekend and fight through some practice problems.

Looking at other blogs on the internet I see they all have some purpose or grand story to tell. Some life adventure that takes them traveling around the globe while they fight battles to conquer their dreams and turn them into reality. I was laying on my floor (as I don't have a desk... yet) thinking to myself, what is the purpose of this most random of blogs. Then it hit me, it stands for anyone who has ever not known what they were doing with their life, and being okay with it and searhing for a purpose. I think it stands for something to believe in when you have nothing else. I say this because I definitely felt that way at times this past summer and I think that maybe you can't "belive" in a blog. But I think you have to believe in yourself. You have to believe that you have the strength to get yourself through anything. Hold onto that belief and turn it into strength.

You can do it.
I believe in you.
- ibelieveinpink.

Searching for Prupose

So tomorrow will begin with my second first day on University. Let's hope this year goes a little but better than last year. Perhaps in this year I will figure out what I am truly passionate about and be able to find a job or program that will allow me to apply that passion. My mother is on me to go into business and do either accounting or finance, both which I'm sure I would end up having extremely successful jobs in, and make some good coin. Is that however worth it if I'm giving up something I love. The answer to that is of course no, but I am yet to find something that I love.

I have always wanted to help people and I know many people immediately jump to doctor and although that would be great I think that perhaps there are infact many other ways that one can help others. I am looking into nutrition right now and I do have a lot more research to do, because I do want a job that is challenging and a job where I can progress and have room to grow upwards in.

At the end of this year I will have finished all the crappy pre-requisites for both a BSc major in Nutrition and BComm Major in Accounting and Finance. I will be applying for both and hopefully getting into both so that i can make a decision. I will definitely need to find some dietitians to talk to and find out if there is even job opportunity out there or if business is truly the way to go. I can always go back and take more school. I will also have finished all my classes to get into Med School, minus physics at the end of this year and even though I don't think I have the marks to get in I think I should try, because I have always said it was something I wanted to do.

If anyone has life advice on how to make a decision like this please let me know. I have exactly 365 days until I start my 3rd year and I would like to have a general idea as to what I will be doing with my life...

Until then I will keep believing in m self because right now that's all I can do, and it's always the most important thing. SO readers don't forget it.

- ibelieveinpink

Elle Woods Style

So I know it's been a while and I have definitely been dealing with a lot. I don't really want to get into my personal life a lot on the internet but lets just say there have been issues with a select amount of boys. I have been traveling a lot this summer and I did go to Florida with my family for 2 weeks and then I went to see one of my very best friends Anna Rogers in Twsasseen for 4 days and it was amazing and I miss her like crazy. I am now in Banff with Stephanie and having the time of my life and I am quite drunk. We were watching Legally Blonde and I just loved how Elle Woods held herself. No matter how rude or infuriating the other people were to her she always had a smile on and was never a bitch. I want to be like her. In the final graduation scene where Elle is valedictorian she says "and finally we must always have faith in ourselves." As she said that it was like the world world clicked for me. I have to be okay with myself before I can be okay with other people. I have to believe in myself and have faith in myself. I have to forgive myself for the mistakes I have made and I have to move forward and set goals and achieve them, because I am that good of a person. I can do it. I do believe in myself. I can achieve my dreams. I will work hard this year to get where I want to be. I want to be accepted to business and nutrition and for that I do need a 3.3 which is a B+ and I do believe I can achieve that. So watch me. I will not only amaze you, but i will amaze myself. I won't let any person hold me down. I am my own person and I'm okay by myself.
I believe in myself.
That's All.
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