Benefit of the Doubt ?

My room is ALMOST done !! The color looks amazing and the organizational skills are impeccable. Alysha and I have been at it for a week now.. we are going to bu a desk and decorations tomorrow morning and hopefully put things in the desk and be done except for the pictures. I have thrown out 2 garbage bags of clothes and 5 or garbage and crap ! I'm so proud of myself!!!

Alysha and I have also burned through some baking !! We made choclates, lemon meringue cupcakes, cherry marzipan cupcakes, meringues, cookies, creme brulee, and lemon meringue pie!! All in about 3 hours !!! Wow we rock. The food looks sooooo good ! Hopefully I can figure out ho to put pictures up and then put up the one of all the food.

Back to where my mind has been the past week or so... I'm really struggling with giving people the benefit of the doubt. I want to so badly believe the good in people but at times I'm so skeptical. I want to trust people. I want to believe people arn't generally selfish. But when I have people so close to me telling me that they all have red flags going up I have to take a step back because I really value their opinions, and sometimes I think I need to re-evaluate. Right now I don't know who to believe, I don't know who is telling the truth and who is lying. The worst part is I have no idea how to figure out who is telling the truth and who is lying. It's like that riddle where you have one question to ask and one person always tells the truth and one person always lies and you have to figure out which question to ask so that you can take the right path. I don't know how to figure it out, so I guess I just have to trust my instincts because I know me best !!!

Thank goodness I leave this city soon though ! There is so much drama going on !! Florida in 7 days, Vancouver in 23 days and Banff in 33 days <3 Then school starts ! Which I am super nervous about !! I need to get into 2 more classes and fix my fall term or Mondays and Wednesdays I will be going 9-5 !!! :s YIKES !!!

Hopefully all will turn out for the best and I have to believe it will ! "Good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together!"

Off to a taste of Edmonton with Bachelor #1 and then to Iron Horse tonight with some people from work !!! (3 days of UDF left <3)

- ibelieveinpink.

The Best Things in Life

Room has been purged and we prepped and painted the first coat of brown on Friday night !! My iPhone then proceeded to shit and start being chinese. So if you texted me on Friday night or Saturday Morning, I didn't get it do to technical difficulties. I woke up Saturday and drove Alysha to work and then went to Southgate to shit on Rogers and Apple. After an hour and a half I ended up with a free new iphone !! 10 4 ! I went home and painted the second coat of brown and first coat of shelves with Daddy dearest. Then got ready for my date with Andrew. After fidgeting with my hair, which in the end really didnt co-operate Bachelor #2 met my Daddy and picked me up. We went out to the Devonian Gardens and then to the Cactus Club for dinner. Such a perfect first date! I really do like him. We came back to my place and watched some old dance videos, and it reminded me to make sure to tell everyone that the best things in life are free. So find those things and treasure them. Weather it's spending time with people you care about, or giving someone a hug or a kiss. Find those things that make your toes crickle and your heart beat a little faster ! Persue those. Love deeply.
- ibelieveinpink.

ps. Date # 2 with Justin tomorrow as well as massage and painting the red walls !!!

2 weeks.

Alysha and I have been purging my room this week! No, no, not like purging a hydrant. Sorry only UDF people would understand that. All we have left to do is finish my closet and go buy paint! The colors are going to be Red and Cream although after talking to my mom I might go with a darker creamish tope color. I'm so excited because we will paint and eat pizza and perhaps have a glass of wine! I must try and get some sleep cause I need to get up in 5 hours !!!! I will keep you all updated on what the room looks like. I'll take some before and after pictures.

I'm feeling pretty good today because it almost feels like I get to have a clean slate and start fresh with everything! I'm starting to get pumped for school and starting everything up again in September. I leave for Florida in 2 weeks and I'm so excited for that, although I won't be UDFing anymore and although Carl (high heels) did put me purging next week and the week after that, I will miss all the people. One of the guys I have become extremely close with is going back to operations next week for the rest of the summer and I will really miss him. It's so random that we were all hired by EPCOR and we all have such different personalities and yet we all get along so well. I love all my McCauley people. They all seem to have my back and I'll really miss them. They were definitely there for me while I was going through one of my roughest times in life. So thanks guys I'll miss you all. Here's to August 28th - UDF party !!! <3

I love ya Alysha thanks for all the help this week ! Check her out at (www.alysha-startingfresh.blogspot.com) See you @ 2pm.

- ibelieveinpink. (you should too)

Life Lessons

I feel shot down and worthless right now and I find that when I feel like this I read quotes and they bring me back up. Here are some life lessons I have found and I think people should know these:

** I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

** I've learned that no matter how much I care, sometimes people just don't care back.

** I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

** I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only second to destroy it.

** I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have that counts.

** I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsiblefor who we become.

** I've learned that we are responsile for what we do, no matter how we feel.

** I've learned that no matter how good a freidn is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must frogive them for that.

** I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

** I've learned that just because two people argue doesn't mean they don't love eachother and just because they don't argue it doesn't mean that they do.

** I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

** I've learned that heroes are people who donwhat has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

** Lastly I have learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

So many of these are so true and I hope each of you reading this post go through and think of how you can apply some of these to your own lices. It is so important to forgive yourself because I do believe people are naturally good. You can keep going when you feel life giving up. Life doens't stop for anyone so as hard as it is, sometimes you just have to pull yourself up off the ground when life kicks you in the teeth.

Keep your head up.
- ibeleiveinpink.

Date 1 - Bachelor 1

Yesterday I went on my first date in over a year... I had been in a long term relationship for 14.5 months prior to this summer. I met Bachelor #1 at Union and immediately Alysha and I thought that he was good looking! Later in the night he saw us dancing and he came over and I started dancing with him. We danced for a while and he was very cute and he ended up kissing me for a bit and then asking for my number. Te next day he asked me out on a date and yesterday we went to Joeys (South Common) for our first date. He seems really a sweet guy and is wanting to be in the air force. Things went great and he asked me to go out again on Sunday and we decided to go mini golfing. As we were getting up to leave he asked me if I had facebook and I told him yes and showed him how to spell my last name so that he could add me. I started work at 9pm like always (2 more night shifts woot!) and I checked facebook to see that he had added me. I immediately added him back as I naturally wanted to creep. To my shock and surprise he was listed as "In a Relationship" with another girl. I texted him asking him what that was all about (very politely I might add as I wanted to give himself a chance to explain things). I have yet to receive a response and I can no longer see if he is in a relationship or if he just took it off. I am finding this whole situation very very fishy. I have talked to a few people about it and I think I have some good perspective on it. Hopefully he answers my text today and we can talk it out. If not, I guess things wern't meant to be. One of my great UDF friends Scott lent me a book to read "How to make someone fall in love with you in 90 minutes" I will have to read it and then lend it to Alysha as we are both recently single. :) We will get through this summer Alysha and find some wicked hot boys. I have a date potentially Saturday let's call him Bachelor #2, if he gets his stuff together. He knows what he has to do before I will go. But I really really really hope he does because its at the Devonian Gardens and I might like him :) (a lot) This other guy I work with Bachelor #3 asked me to dinner because we were talking about his personal life so I don't know if that is considered a date or not. I agreed to go out with Bachelor #4 on Tuesday night after work, but I might be regretting it now as he is always pouty.... Finally I really injured my back last night at work, I may or may not have been dancing in the street and hurt myself badly. Luckily Scott fixed me a decent amount this morning. :)
Anyways off to bedd <3 I'm beat.
Talk you you all later
- ibelieveinpink.

Summer at a Glance

So up until now my blogs have been very serious. So I thought it might be time to loosen up a little and give my readers a little bit of interesting info about my summer! So here goes;

May - Started my summer job at EPCOR flushing water mains. This job pays extremely well. $19/hr on days and $21/hr on nights. The only crazy thing is nights are 9pm - 7am. But the middle of the night is actually an extremely fun time!!!! I worked with Scott Kellsey who is a super amazing guy who makes me laugh none stop with his crazy accents and we have 4am dance parties by the flushes. I then moved back onto days and worked with Mark Cramer who is a decently quiet guy. My studio had the year end recital as well as the solo and duet show and everyone danced remarkably. I even busted a few moves in my old age. Speaking of old age I did turn 19 this month and had a wonderful birthday. I was sent flowers from Andrew and then went out for a lovely dinner to the Japanese Village with friends and then had a limo pick us up and take us to Iron Horse.

June- Back on nights with Tim, in quite a tough area. Having fun with friends, going for supper and to Hudsons with girls and looking for potential single boys. Although this is the summer of breakups. Between Alysha and I (check out her blog www.alysha-startingfresh.blogspot.com) we know of 9 people that have broken up and the summer isn't over yet! Started planning out how I want to redo my room and I have decided on red and cream. Getting pumped for Kelowna. Spending lots of time at the lake and met an NHL hockey player (Brandon Sutter).

July- Back for 3 days of work purging (by myself). I was however put in the most amazing area with the most amazing homes. I did find my dream home. 6944 Ozerna Rd. Go check it out !!! Off to Kelowna with Steven on WestJet flight 111 with service to #ylw. EDF did well in Kelowna and cleaned up!!! Whitney took the over all solo in the Grand Championships!!! I then spent an extra week out there with Alex (bff) and we had so much fun!!! Home now and I am back on nights working with Mark again. Celebrated my sisters, mom's and steven's birthdays this past weekend and my little sister is 16 today. So happy birthday Julia I love you. She is flying to L.A. today to dance for 2.5 weeks and I'm so very proud of her! I'm stoked for Florida and my romantic getaway with Stephanie! I am also looking forward to the 2 dates I have this week!

Anyways this is my summer so far!
I hope it just gets better!
<3
-ibelieveinpink.

The Brick Walls

"The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough." If you are lucky enough to find something or someone that is worth fighting for, hold onto them or that thing. Make them the center of your universe and don't let go of them. This is true for obstacles as well. Believe in yourself and believe that you can do it. When you want something you must always remember there is always a way to obtain it. Find that way and go and get it. Don't let anything stop you from getting it. There will be obstacles. Many people think that everything they want in life will be handed to them. This is definitely not the case. YOU WILL FAIL IN LIFE. Harsh words I know but everyone has to realize that there are things that you won't succeed at. Experience is what you get when you don't succeed and sometimes this is almost more helpful and useful to us. Always look back at why you didn't succeed and learn from the mistakes you made! This will teach you to be a better person and give you some life experience. There are people out there that will try to tear you down and those people are putting up brick walls as well. Those types of things though only make you stronger as a person! Learn something from every person, and I know that I have said that before but it couldn't be more true. Find those people that will help you get past the brick walls. And be patient with life, it may just surprise you <3
-ibelieveinpink.

Omnia Causa Flunt

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

This is truly where I am at with my life right now. I always have and always will believe that things happen for a reason. I believe that people come into your life to teach you things. You may not realize right now what those things are that they will teach you. But hopefully sometime in life, you can look back and see what it was that they have taught you. And perhaps its not always good things that they teach you. I think that sometimes people are in your life to teach you what kind of people you don't want to surround yourself with. Then there are those amazing people that you really do have to hold onto. Always take the high road, especially with these people if you get in a disagreement with them, it shouldn't matter who is right and who is wrong you should swallow your pride and be the bigger person and extend a hand to them. You don't want to lose amazing people because of sheer stubbornness. I believe in looking for the good in people and assuming that each person will always put they're best foot forward. Maybe that makes me naive and to opportunistic. Maybe I will get my heart broken a lot. Maybe people will continue to disappoint me. I'm sure all those things will happen to me again and again in life. But I do think that it is really silly be so guarded and pessimistic that you can't see the good in people. I hope when people look at me they see the best. I hope they see the love in my heart and all the potential in the world. That's what I want people to see in me not the bad things or the jaded judgments they have heard from others. I want people to give me a chance to prove that I am truly a good person at heart. How else can I expect that from people when I don't believe that of other people??? I can't so that is why I am going to believe that people are naturally good and believe in them even before they have given me reason to believe in them. So people of the world give me reason to believe that what I'm writing is not complete nonsense. Show me the good in your hearts. <3
-ibeleiveinpink.

Life is truly to short...

"life is too short to be unhappy laugh when you can ...say sorry when you should let go of what you can't change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances and give everything you have. Take the good with the bad, smile with the sad love what you've got and remember what you had. Always forgive but never forget, learn ...from your mistakes but never regret. People change things go wrong just remember; life goes on"

This quote sums it up. Shitty things will happen in your life and its how we deal with them that makes us better people. I have definitely made my fair share of mistakes. I am not always right, in fact most of the time I'm probably not right. I can be stubborn and I think that when you start to think close minded and only believe that there is one answer or one way of dealing with something you need to stop, take a step back and breathe for a second. Because 9/10 times there is another way, it may not be your first choice but at least it will get the job done. It's better to take a chance on something and try it out that miss an opportunity because you are being stubborn. When people do things that hurt us or we do things that hurt them we must try and move on with our lives without being spiteful. If we are spiteful then we carry more baggage with us than necessary and we become so guarded that we can let no one in. That is no way to live. I know we are supposed to be careful with our hearts but sometimes I believe you have to try and let go of all the things that hurt you in life and try to live and love like none of it has happened. Take risks because with out them we will live a very dull life. You don't want to become so obsessed with not getting hurt that you push people away that could potentially be right for you. Give people a chance and believe that people are naturally good. Even when they give you reason to believe they are bad, they still have good in them and it takes a truly special person to be able to look past the bad in people and see the good. Life stops for no one to be hurt or damaged, and as hard as it is we must pick our selves up off the floor sometimes. Regardless of how hard it is, it will only make you stronger. <3
- ibelieveinpink. <3

Decisions & Choices

Good evening.
As many of you know my summer job this year consists of 2 week rotations of days and nights. As you can probably tell by the time of this post I am on night shift. UDF is a great summer job but I definitely don't want to be in a labor position for the rest of my life. Right now I am in the faculty of sciences with an undeclared major. I am taking the pre requisites for the nutrition program, for the business program, and I am looking into nursing as well. I don't know how I am supposed to know what I want to be for the rest of my life at the age of 19. I thought I always knew what I wanted and now I am more unsure then I have ever been and it scares me. So if you are out there and reading this and you have some insight as to how I should choose my life career then let me know. There are so many variables and what ifs out there that it is hard to truly see if you are making the right decisions. Then is comes down to the fact that every single choice we make has consequences an we must live with those consequences whether they are good or bad. Decisions then become tough because we never want to make the wrong one an deal with bad consequences that hurt us or other people so if you know how to overcome this fear of choices, let me know. Have a great night everyone.
-ibeliveinpink <3

Hello !

Hello Everyone <3
Welcome to my blog. I named this Blog "I believe in pink" after one of my all time favorite quotes by Audrey Hepburn. Which goes a little something like this;
"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
Anyways this blog is going to be for my thoughts and comments on things and I'm definitely going to try and make it positive because there are a lot of things in life that can pull you down and will try to pull you down and if you let them do that you simply cannot be the best version of yourself. So here is to staying positive and believing in yourself.
<3 ibelieveinpink.