Nerd it Up.

As the first week draws to an end, I'm feeling tired, sore, and maybe a little excited. I really would like to do well and I do mean quite well in school this year. My inspiration is getting into a program I will love so I never have to take another Organic Chemistry class again. That does however require me to know, what exactly that miracle program is. Thus I have to keep my options open. I need to do a lot of research and figure out what I truly want. That being said I have to focus, focus, focus and study hard this year. Most classes are going extremely well this semester so far, although it has only been 3 days of class. The only class that is stressing me out to the max is organic chemistry. That class will likely end my sanity and cause me to go insane. We have finished the second lecture and I am already lost. I will not however give up on this class, even though ever molecule of my being is telling me to do so. I will work on it this weekend and fight through some practice problems.

Looking at other blogs on the internet I see they all have some purpose or grand story to tell. Some life adventure that takes them traveling around the globe while they fight battles to conquer their dreams and turn them into reality. I was laying on my floor (as I don't have a desk... yet) thinking to myself, what is the purpose of this most random of blogs. Then it hit me, it stands for anyone who has ever not known what they were doing with their life, and being okay with it and searhing for a purpose. I think it stands for something to believe in when you have nothing else. I say this because I definitely felt that way at times this past summer and I think that maybe you can't "belive" in a blog. But I think you have to believe in yourself. You have to believe that you have the strength to get yourself through anything. Hold onto that belief and turn it into strength.

You can do it.
I believe in you.
- ibelieveinpink.

Searching for Prupose

So tomorrow will begin with my second first day on University. Let's hope this year goes a little but better than last year. Perhaps in this year I will figure out what I am truly passionate about and be able to find a job or program that will allow me to apply that passion. My mother is on me to go into business and do either accounting or finance, both which I'm sure I would end up having extremely successful jobs in, and make some good coin. Is that however worth it if I'm giving up something I love. The answer to that is of course no, but I am yet to find something that I love.

I have always wanted to help people and I know many people immediately jump to doctor and although that would be great I think that perhaps there are infact many other ways that one can help others. I am looking into nutrition right now and I do have a lot more research to do, because I do want a job that is challenging and a job where I can progress and have room to grow upwards in.

At the end of this year I will have finished all the crappy pre-requisites for both a BSc major in Nutrition and BComm Major in Accounting and Finance. I will be applying for both and hopefully getting into both so that i can make a decision. I will definitely need to find some dietitians to talk to and find out if there is even job opportunity out there or if business is truly the way to go. I can always go back and take more school. I will also have finished all my classes to get into Med School, minus physics at the end of this year and even though I don't think I have the marks to get in I think I should try, because I have always said it was something I wanted to do.

If anyone has life advice on how to make a decision like this please let me know. I have exactly 365 days until I start my 3rd year and I would like to have a general idea as to what I will be doing with my life...

Until then I will keep believing in m self because right now that's all I can do, and it's always the most important thing. SO readers don't forget it.

- ibelieveinpink

Elle Woods Style

So I know it's been a while and I have definitely been dealing with a lot. I don't really want to get into my personal life a lot on the internet but lets just say there have been issues with a select amount of boys. I have been traveling a lot this summer and I did go to Florida with my family for 2 weeks and then I went to see one of my very best friends Anna Rogers in Twsasseen for 4 days and it was amazing and I miss her like crazy. I am now in Banff with Stephanie and having the time of my life and I am quite drunk. We were watching Legally Blonde and I just loved how Elle Woods held herself. No matter how rude or infuriating the other people were to her she always had a smile on and was never a bitch. I want to be like her. In the final graduation scene where Elle is valedictorian she says "and finally we must always have faith in ourselves." As she said that it was like the world world clicked for me. I have to be okay with myself before I can be okay with other people. I have to believe in myself and have faith in myself. I have to forgive myself for the mistakes I have made and I have to move forward and set goals and achieve them, because I am that good of a person. I can do it. I do believe in myself. I can achieve my dreams. I will work hard this year to get where I want to be. I want to be accepted to business and nutrition and for that I do need a 3.3 which is a B+ and I do believe I can achieve that. So watch me. I will not only amaze you, but i will amaze myself. I won't let any person hold me down. I am my own person and I'm okay by myself.
I believe in myself.
That's All.
<3

East Coast Adventures Begin !!!

On Saturday August 7th at 8:00 we departed for Edmonton International Airport to board AC 1160 with service to Toronto. We cleared security. Not even 10 minutes had past and we run into the Visser/Kent family who are on the flight before us (their flight was delayed) also going to Toronto. We decided we would meet up with them for dinner in Toronto and later that night we had a delectable dinner at Via Allegro in Toronto. Elysia and I had crab ravioli and Jessica, Elysia and I had Wine and then Split Tirimisu and Creme Brulee !! We went to bed last night and woke up this morning to board Ac 902 to Tampa !!!

There was a screaming kid on the fight the for 2 and a half hours !!!! We landed in Tampa and got off the plane. The place we are staying in is AMAZING ! It is right on the ocean !!! There are so many beds I think 5 ! We went to this little place called Old Port across the street for lunch and it was really nice. I need to go back and look at some of the rings because they were so cute!

The Family went grocery shopping and I think bought 5 bottles of wine. Alcohol is so cheap here ranging from 5.49 - 19.99 per bottle. It's great wine too!!!

The rain here is so warm it's amazing! I can't wait to see what tomorrow holds!
I'm so tired but I can't wait to explore more <3
- ibelieveinpink.

<3 Florida

Growing Up.

During this past weekend I think the theme has definitely been "Growing Up." Starting with the realization of how much life actually costs. It is a wee bit stressful. From finishing my room, to tuition, books, school supplies, dance, trips, credit cards, cell phones, and RRSP's. I am looking into starting one because A) It will force me to save money and B) I want to retire at 55 (the earliest you can retire in Canada. Anyways I have many finances to figure out over the next few days. On the bright side my hair is red now. Or at least hopefully it will stay redish or fade and stay strawberry blonde for longer.

Next, I would just like to point out the fact that many of us are going into our second year of University and that some of us are turning 20 within the next year(no longer in the "teens") After pointing this out it astounds me how some people I know still act as though they are in High School or Junior High. The drama this weekend is obnoxious and obscene. Seriously people, let's start acting out age and not our shoe size. I have actually stopped letting it bother me and started laughing at it because it is so ridiculous how much gossip some people spread and how much others talk about it. But hey if they have nothing better to talk about then all the power to them. I know I'm interesting and apparently they can't get enough of me. One day soon though Karma will turn around and give them a nice wake up call and they will see that this isn't high school any more and they can't act like this all the time. Until then, I advise you all to do what I do and take the high road. As much as it sucks sometimes you WILL look like the bigger person.

4 days till I leave for Florida !!!!

- ibelieveinpink.

4.20.30.
(Florida/ Vancouver/ Banff)

Benefit of the Doubt ?

My room is ALMOST done !! The color looks amazing and the organizational skills are impeccable. Alysha and I have been at it for a week now.. we are going to bu a desk and decorations tomorrow morning and hopefully put things in the desk and be done except for the pictures. I have thrown out 2 garbage bags of clothes and 5 or garbage and crap ! I'm so proud of myself!!!

Alysha and I have also burned through some baking !! We made choclates, lemon meringue cupcakes, cherry marzipan cupcakes, meringues, cookies, creme brulee, and lemon meringue pie!! All in about 3 hours !!! Wow we rock. The food looks sooooo good ! Hopefully I can figure out ho to put pictures up and then put up the one of all the food.

Back to where my mind has been the past week or so... I'm really struggling with giving people the benefit of the doubt. I want to so badly believe the good in people but at times I'm so skeptical. I want to trust people. I want to believe people arn't generally selfish. But when I have people so close to me telling me that they all have red flags going up I have to take a step back because I really value their opinions, and sometimes I think I need to re-evaluate. Right now I don't know who to believe, I don't know who is telling the truth and who is lying. The worst part is I have no idea how to figure out who is telling the truth and who is lying. It's like that riddle where you have one question to ask and one person always tells the truth and one person always lies and you have to figure out which question to ask so that you can take the right path. I don't know how to figure it out, so I guess I just have to trust my instincts because I know me best !!!

Thank goodness I leave this city soon though ! There is so much drama going on !! Florida in 7 days, Vancouver in 23 days and Banff in 33 days <3 Then school starts ! Which I am super nervous about !! I need to get into 2 more classes and fix my fall term or Mondays and Wednesdays I will be going 9-5 !!! :s YIKES !!!

Hopefully all will turn out for the best and I have to believe it will ! "Good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together!"

Off to a taste of Edmonton with Bachelor #1 and then to Iron Horse tonight with some people from work !!! (3 days of UDF left <3)

- ibelieveinpink.

The Best Things in Life

Room has been purged and we prepped and painted the first coat of brown on Friday night !! My iPhone then proceeded to shit and start being chinese. So if you texted me on Friday night or Saturday Morning, I didn't get it do to technical difficulties. I woke up Saturday and drove Alysha to work and then went to Southgate to shit on Rogers and Apple. After an hour and a half I ended up with a free new iphone !! 10 4 ! I went home and painted the second coat of brown and first coat of shelves with Daddy dearest. Then got ready for my date with Andrew. After fidgeting with my hair, which in the end really didnt co-operate Bachelor #2 met my Daddy and picked me up. We went out to the Devonian Gardens and then to the Cactus Club for dinner. Such a perfect first date! I really do like him. We came back to my place and watched some old dance videos, and it reminded me to make sure to tell everyone that the best things in life are free. So find those things and treasure them. Weather it's spending time with people you care about, or giving someone a hug or a kiss. Find those things that make your toes crickle and your heart beat a little faster ! Persue those. Love deeply.
- ibelieveinpink.

ps. Date # 2 with Justin tomorrow as well as massage and painting the red walls !!!